Day 95: Weigh-in

173.5. That's actually perfectly on track. Huh. :)

Day 94: Fails and boobs.

I expect the weigh-in tomorrow to be disappointing, because I've gone completely overboard on snacking this past week. The stress of my life currently is kinda getting to me.

But I've also been swimming more, and I've gone down a cup size in my bras. No change elsewhere, so for now I'm just gonna have to deal with the annoyance of too big cups.

We'll have to wait and see about tomorrow. -sigh-

Day 90: Swim and snack.

I went swimming and did 300 meters AKA 6 lanes. But the pool smelled horrible and my towel got soaked and strangers talked to me a lot, and...

I fell in, hard, snack wise. I'm hoping these two events will somewhat even each other out. -sigh-

Day 89: Doubts.

Ugh, for some reason I'm having a really hard time appreciating how far I've come already. Despite being perfectly acceptably back on track, I can't help but feel like I'm not doing enough. I can't even say how I should be doing better, but... it just feels like I'm not winning this.

I'm 8 kilos down in roughly 90 days. That's a kilo every 10 days. Thats fine. That's exactly as it should be.

And yet... fucking stupid brain.

Day 88: Weigh-In

174.1. Aw yisss, I'm back on track. :D

The exercise probably helps some, because I have actually been snacking a little bit too much. But as long as the weight is still drizzling downwards, that's okay, for now.

Day 85: 10 Lanes!

I've been swimming a little more recently, and today I finally made it back to 10 lanes. Usually my average is 6 lanes (300 meters) and my maximum is 20 lanes (1000 meters). 10 lanes is enough to feel the burn a little, and I wish I could make it my average, but, alas, I'm usually tired by 6. I haven't been able to make it to 10 for like six months, to some regret.

So anyway, 10 lanes is cause for celebration, and I'm super proud of it. :)

Day 82: Weigh-In.

Phew, stress. Scales said 175.4 yesterday, so pretty much a standstill, but that's okay. I've been swimming a few times, and I've been more active, so my hope is that some of it is muscle build. This theory is backed up by the fact that my tightest and most uncomfortable underwear fits better now, so size is being reduced, if not weight. So it's still looking good.

I have been snacking quite a lot, though, but considering how intense life is being right now, I can't expect to have much mental energy left over to focus on food. I'll just have to hope my general changes in habits will make up for it, and at least keep me from gaining weight until I can get back on track properly.

Day 80: -Bites Nails-

Not looking forward to tomorrow's weigh-in. It's been a messy week of quite some snacking, but also some exercising, so I have no idea what the scales will show me tomorrow. However, I was at the doctor's today, and his scales showed me 175.3, and considering they showed 177 last time, that's a good sign.

But still. Nervous. I'll just have to wait and see.

Day 74: Weigh-In

175.3. So one week later I'm heading back to where I was before, and this despite how much stress these past few days have caused me.

I'm still struggling to add exercise, but I'm also not beating myself up about it. Things are still progressing nicely, no need to demand more of myself than I can handle.

My skin still feels so weird and loose, and my face is looking a little saggy these days, though that could just be poor sleep and stress.

Plowing on. :)

UPDATE: Managed to go swimming. Yay!